Discourse on Duality

There exists in me so many versions, “duality” doesn’t seem to cover it. Yet, I guess anything can be broken down into binaries…I am many versions of myself. I am all sorts of confluencing parts & pieces, so often seemingly at odds, by their very nature. I worry I am both too smart and not smart enough & I worry that the empathy and kindness I think I possess is just another reflection of narcissism; the way in which we all see the world through our own specific point of view. How can any one person know or decide what is truly good or right? We can spend all day doing mental gymnastics, trying to justify our beliefs but at the end of the day the logic is predicated on absolutes, of which we can truly know nothing for certain. And so here we arrive at absurdism or nihilism or perhaps you prefer to pawn it off to Gods or Spirits, all in all it shows how truly reticent we are to dive head first into the unknown. There always has to be an answer. The ultimate duality presents itself as the desire to know in absolutes and the fear of any unknowns.